well 💩

Tuesday, 10:00 a.m.
Content day. The sacred block. The “no meetings, no errands, no distractions” time that I lovingly protect like it’s a toddler learning to walk.

I prepped for this day like a woman about to record a TED Talk.
Lighting? Ideal.
Outfit? Neutral, but “effortlessly glowy.”
Desk? Cleared. Laptop? Charged.

I even lit a candle. A candle, .
This is how you know I meant business.

I told myself I’d record a few Reels. Or at least one. Maybe just talk to the camera and see what happens.

And then?

Nothing.

I opened Instagram.
Checked my email.
Reorganized my downloads folder like it owed me rent.
And—because self-sabotage loves to wear a silk robe—I spent 45 minutes looking at boutique hotels in Milan for my birthday next week, still pretending I’m just “waiting for the right one” to reveal itself like some kind of travel oracle.

And before I knew it, it was 5:17 p.m. and I had recorded zero content. Not one reel. Not even a notes app monologue.

Just vibes. And guilt.

Because it wasn’t just that I skipped content day.
It’s that I chose not to show up for something I swore mattered.
I protected the time, I made the space—and I still ghosted it.

And honestly?
That version of me—the one who blocked it off in the first place—deserved better.

She wasn’t trying to be productive.
She was trying to be present.
To prioritize creativity. To show up, even if it was messy or awkward or unfiltered.
And instead of giving her that… I bailed.

Not with drama. Not with resistance. Just a quiet retreat into the safety of other things.

Things that felt urgent. Things that looked like movement.
Things that let me stay busy while avoiding the thing I really wanted to do.

Because let’s be real: this wasn’t burnout.
I wasn’t overwhelmed. I wasn’t overbooked. I wasn’t even tired.

I just… didn’t do it.

And for a minute, that felt worse than all of those other things.

Because if I had the time, the energy, the intention—what’s left to blame?

Cue the shame spiral:

“You’re slipping.”
“You can’t even stick to your own plan.”
“How do you expect anyone to take you seriously?”

I knew it wasn’t true.
But it felt true—and that’s where it gets sneaky.

Because when you’re someone who’s done the work—
who has the rituals, the systems, the calendar blocks—
missing a day doesn’t feel like missing a day.

It feels like maybe you’re not who you thought you were.

But you are.
You’re still her.

You’re just human.
And sometimes, even with the best intentions, you don’t show up for the thing you swore you would.

Not because you’re lazy. Not because you don’t care.
But because you’re learning how to trust yourself all over again.

And that? That’s not a failure.
That’s the practice.

So no, I didn’t record anything that day.

But I did realize this:

Structure doesn’t exist to keep us in line.
It exists to help us find our way back.

It’s not about sticking to the plan perfectly.
It’s about knowing there was a plan—one you chose for a reason.
And even if you abandon it for a day, a week, or a whole season… it’s still there.

Waiting. Without punishment.
Without urgency.
Just holding space until you’re ready to return.

That’s what I’m learning to trust—
That soft structure isn’t fragile.
It’s flexible. Forgiving. Faithful.

And that’s the kind of rhythm we’re building inside The Glow Social Club.
Structure that bends. Support that softens.
And wellness that meets you in your real life—not just your ideal one.

💛 Come join us here—if you’ve ever skipped the thing you swore you’d stick to, you’re already one of us.

We’re not here to make you perfect. We’re here to help you come back—again and again—with softness.

I know this guilt spiral isn’t just mine. If you’ve felt it too… what helps you reset?

Hit reply—I’d love to hear. I’ll share a few answers in a future email (anonymously, unless you say otherwise).

Your favorite calendar-blocking content ghost,

—Genta 🤍

P.S. There’s something quietly big coming… Let’s just say I’ve been asked to write about this exact kind of softness, structure, and self-trust for a global platform that features world-class founders and thought leaders. I’ll share more soon—and yes, you’ll be the first to know.